Can I just be done with today?

It's really not that bad, but I didn't get quite enough sleep last night (much more my fault than Reilly's for once) and Reilly is so cranky and grumpy today. And the wind is howling outside, rattling the foil on my bedroom windows and trying to get into Reilly's room through the cooler and every crack. Maybe that's part of what's making him upset. My mom has mentioned her babies seemed more restless when it was so windy. I wonder if Iowa is windy like this? I think it is sometimes - it's really flat there, right? I feel a little sick to my stomach and not sure if it's because I'm hungry or something else... I finished putting Heather's wedding onto a DVD, so that's nice. Now I just have to make a cover and label for it. I haven't accomplished much else today except I -did- exercise. I'm really trying to be good. I'm wrestling with whether I should make the cookies I was going to make yesterday. I know Jeremy would really enjoy them, but will I be able to eat just one or two? Hmm. Reilly is sitting on my lap and totally enthralled with the two-handed typing process. :) That's fun; usually I hold him with one hand and one-hand it. Somehow I know this isn't going to last that long though. Reilly gets his shots tomorrow. NOT exciting. He's already having such a hard time with teething and drainage, but I can't put them off AGAIN. He turned 5 months old yesterday. I can't believe it! He is getting so fat... I hope he starts growing out again sometime soon...

Sick of coughing

So we've all been fighting colds for several weeks now, and Jeremy came home from tour as a bass instead of a tenor, :) but I am really not feeling well. I coughed myself to sleep last night and then Reilly woke up every 1.5 to 2 hours, which is unusual for him. He'll usually sleep at least 3 to 4 hours at a stretch - sometimes 5-6+. Very tired today. Jeremy and Reilly are at church. I should be sleeping but can't face it. Maybe I'll go shower in a few minutes. I've been video editing and coughing, mostly. Jeremy has been really helpful, and even got up with Reilly this morning. I was nice and let him sleep in until 11:30 yesterday, too, though, so... Still, he's wonderful.

I love my mom(s)

I am really going to miss all this family support when we move to Iowa. My mom just came and picked up Reilly and she's going to keep him for a few hours. He'll get better attention and I can do the dishes and maybe even sleep? I'm really tired but sleep doesn't sound appealing with my scratchy throat. Then this evening I think Jeremy's mom is going to watch him for a few hours so Jeremy and I can do something together. :) Tired, but blessed.

Thoughts on 4 hours of sleep.

No, thank you. I thought I was mostly beyond sleep-deprivation now that Reilly is almost 5 months old. Speaking of him, I decided to title this blog after my baby boy because usually it seems like that's all I do or think about (other than video editing whenever I get a chance.) I'm not complaining, really, that's just life right now.

Anyway. Jeremy is gone on choir tour and I always stay up too late when he's gone. So I got in bed at midnight (1.5 hours after the last time Reilly needed to be rocked back to sleep) but couldn't go to sleep until 1. Then Reilly woke up at almost 5, and had to be totally changed cause he had leaked. Poor little guy was cooing brokenly (because of the drainage we're both suffering from) by the time I was done, which meant he was very awake. Sigh. Someone invent a better diaper! It took a while to nurse him and get him back to sleep - about 30 minutes. After that I tried and tried, but couldn't get to sleep. Between my drainage, the train, and (after a while) knowing Reilly could wake up at any moment, it just didn't happen. I finally stopped trying because I was going crazy. So here I am. Almost 8 o'clock but having slept only 4 hours. When am I going to sleep?

In happier news, I have lost 2.5 lbs in the last 2 weeks. It's nothing amazing, but a lot better than gaining or staying the same. Gonna keep working on it, just not too intensely. I'm too tired to be intense about anything.